I have a confession to make.
I'm scared.
All my adult life has been centered around this paradigm of working for a corporation where I get a steady paycheck, health insurance, work set hours, etc.
Even back in 2008 when the economy crashed and I was funemployed for a year and a half, my expectation was that I would always go back to Corpland. I spent quite a bit of time writing finished 2 screenplays, got through first drafts of 2 others, but I still knew that as soon as the economy was better, I'd go back to localization project management.
Now it's different. My official contract deadline is up March 17. I've had a few interviews but I know - in my heart - I'm just not that interested anymore in working a full time corporate job. For one, it's just not fulfilling. I find that I put most of my mental energy into working for Corpland that gives zero fucks about me. Not saying they should either, but I'm also in a weird situation where I'm contracting.
So, yeah. I decided that after my contract is up, I will not be looking for full-time corporate jobs which is leaving a part of me feeling like this
What exactly is scary about this ?
Time to get to work :-D
I'm scared.
All my adult life has been centered around this paradigm of working for a corporation where I get a steady paycheck, health insurance, work set hours, etc.
Even back in 2008 when the economy crashed and I was funemployed for a year and a half, my expectation was that I would always go back to Corpland. I spent quite a bit of time writing finished 2 screenplays, got through first drafts of 2 others, but I still knew that as soon as the economy was better, I'd go back to localization project management.
Now it's different. My official contract deadline is up March 17. I've had a few interviews but I know - in my heart - I'm just not that interested anymore in working a full time corporate job. For one, it's just not fulfilling. I find that I put most of my mental energy into working for Corpland that gives zero fucks about me. Not saying they should either, but I'm also in a weird situation where I'm contracting.
So, yeah. I decided that after my contract is up, I will not be looking for full-time corporate jobs which is leaving a part of me feeling like this
What exactly is scary about this ?
- I have very little savings in my emergency fund. So little that it's easier to just say there's nothing.
- I don't have a trust fund, not independently wealthy.
- I live in one of the most expensive cities in the US.
- I don't have family to fall back on for support.
Ok phew. That actually felt good to type it out. Im starting to feel my bravery come back which is giving me motivation to write!!
So now I'm feeling like
Time to get to work :-D
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